What if? I used to hear that question echo in the recesses of my heart a lot. Whenever I would pray, God, I will do anything for You There was always a deeper echo that would follow, a hesitation, an ache: But please don't ask me to go through that. Do you know what I … Continue reading What If?
Remember the nation of Israel in the Old Testament? I've been reading Exodus very slowly over the past month or so, and I was reminded of their constant ebb and flow of faith in God. One minute they're crossing the Red Sea (Exodus 13 + 14) and the next minute they're forging an idol out … Continue reading Unseen Hope
An empty page, and an almost empty heart. I've grown tired of trying to listen, trying to write, trying to be. Instead I'll just put my head down, push through the madness, embrace the wind, and just get through. We're all just getting through, aren't we? I read through old journals with scribbled pages, and old blog … Continue reading Who Am I?
Have you ever hit rock bottom? Maybe you're just cruising through life, on autopilot, sure that if you just hustle enough eventually you'll get to rest. You come home each night and fall to pieces, but this is just a season. One day you'll have time to take care of whatever it is you keep … Continue reading Rock Bottom
The following is something I wrote back in April of 2015. I came here with the intention of sharing something poignant, and it seems like this is the best lead in. I grow tired of trying to convince myself of everything everyone else sees in me.we’re doing it, baby we’re doing the things we said … Continue reading See Everything Everyone Else
I've been running a lot lately. For the last 10 weeks, actually. It started with a local 10k, which led to another 10k, and a husband inspired to train for a marathon (thanks, Chip Gaines). So for the last 8 weeks especially, I've been intentionally training and putting in the miles. I don't know what … Continue reading Running, Running.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6oaIrY2Yoo Go ahead and listen to this as you read. Then watch it at the end for good measure. Sometimes seasons of life come with confusion. You take a risk, jump in, only to find that what you thought would be an exciting and soul-filling swim turned out to either be a puddle, or … Continue reading Sing My Way Back
Excited about the future and all the p o s s i b i l i t i e s. There’s so much I don’t know, so much I can’t guess. But I’m ready to try. I think that one of the beautiful things about living is we get to choose to experience things. We … Continue reading April 13th, 2016
You've been stuck inside your house for so long you can't remember what the sun feels like. Everything starts feeling really heavy. You want to sleep, but you also don't, you feel like everything's falling apart. Do you know what I mean? Suddenly it makes sense to throw a 3 year old style tantrum and … Continue reading What I do when I’m losing my mind.
Wanting so desperately to be heard in a world full of voices speaking so loudly, I find myself wondering: How can I speak loudly enough to be heard? How can I move mountains with a faith that is so small? How is God so backwards, and still my soul longs after His ways? What in the world … Continue reading May 9th, 2016