What if? I used to hear that question echo in the recesses of my heart a lot. Whenever I would pray, God, I will do anything for You There was always a deeper echo that would follow, a hesitation, an ache: But please don't ask me to go through that. Do you know what I … Continue reading What If?
"I don't have it in me to lead anyone or anything right now" The thought ran through my mind as I was elbows deep in dishes for the third time that day. Another thought fighting for position in my brain alongside so many anxieties. It was true, I was feeling pulled in a lot of … Continue reading Too Tired to Lead
It’s okay if you feel like it’s hard to find things to be grateful for as we close out this year. It’s okay to be grateful and grieving at the same time. The two are not mutually exclusive. You don’t have to summarize your year and wrap it up with a nice bow or a … Continue reading 2020
I don't have much to say these days. Everywhere I look there seems to be a voice offering some kind of advice, or encouragement, or statistic, or distraction. I honestly feel assaulted with help. Yet, I also feel so much pressure to add to that sound, to speak up and have something poignant to say … Continue reading Hiding
I want to be a part of the restoration. To lose myself in endless projects, restoring what was broken and run down into something beautiful and useful once again. This is a dream that I've had for a long time, if I think about it. When I was young I thought that buying a big … Continue reading Restoration
Remember the nation of Israel in the Old Testament? I've been reading Exodus very slowly over the past month or so, and I was reminded of their constant ebb and flow of faith in God. One minute they're crossing the Red Sea (Exodus 13 + 14) and the next minute they're forging an idol out … Continue reading Unseen Hope
An empty page, and an almost empty heart. I've grown tired of trying to listen, trying to write, trying to be. Instead I'll just put my head down, push through the madness, embrace the wind, and just get through. We're all just getting through, aren't we? I read through old journals with scribbled pages, and old blog … Continue reading Who Am I?
Have you ever hit rock bottom? Maybe you're just cruising through life, on autopilot, sure that if you just hustle enough eventually you'll get to rest. You come home each night and fall to pieces, but this is just a season. One day you'll have time to take care of whatever it is you keep … Continue reading Rock Bottom
The following is something I wrote back in April of 2015. I came here with the intention of sharing something poignant, and it seems like this is the best lead in. I grow tired of trying to convince myself of everything everyone else sees in me.we’re doing it, baby we’re doing the things we said … Continue reading See Everything Everyone Else
I've been running a lot lately. For the last 10 weeks, actually. It started with a local 10k, which led to another 10k, and a husband inspired to train for a marathon (thanks, Chip Gaines). So for the last 8 weeks especially, I've been intentionally training and putting in the miles. I don't know what … Continue reading Running, Running.